Wednesday 16 May 2012

Loving yourself

Forgive me Blog followers for I have sinned. Its been nearly a month since my last blog and I know you are all waiting patiently for the next dating disaster to hit your screens! Sorry- its unforgivable I know, but to be fair I had a computer malfunction so for a week or so I had no way of composing this.
Well I'm back now with a new story. Although today isn't about a bad horrific date or a funny on line story. Its just about me and my opinion on a few things.
Although saying that there is a funny story that starting my whole rambling thoughts off. This weekend just gone I found myself at a family function- my youngest nephews Christening. A lovely family day where unlike at a wedding you dont feel that singled out for not being in a couple. During the afternoon my wonderful mother called me over to talk to some of my brothers old school buddies. She was telling them all about her daughters dating blog and my disasters. Not a bad start, until my mother uttered this fateful sentence (although I'm guessing she will deny saying this!)
"The problem  with Bonnie is that when men she meets find out shes a psycho it scares them off"
I kid you not! That was the actual word she used! I was gobsmacked! My mother calling me  a psycho! It took a few moments for me to realise that wasn't the word she meant to use and all was quickly corrected. Her mouth and brain weren't in sync with each other and she had insulted her daughter in error.
But it got me thinking- maybe I am just misunderstood. I honestly don't think 'Im hard work to get on with, I'm not a demanding princess, nor am I high maintenance (although I am prone to the odd mood swing or temper tantrum but as a female I  am allowed to have those!)I'm your typical girl next door type, who likes the countryside, nights out with friends, a good giggle and a nice hug. Okay I do have the odd trait thats a bit bolder than most, but thats what makes me Bonnie. Im unique. And so is everyone else.
And that is why I am happy. Im happy being Bonnie- single, dating, in a relationship or otherwise. I like how I am, I like me. A lot of people don't like themselves or haven't got around to finding out about themselves, which is why they arent happy in their relationships. How can you expect someone to love you when you don't love yourself. You have to know what you want in life to find the right person or people to travel the road with you. Don't get me wrong, Im still learning what I want from life, and I still will change or adapt to whatever happens to me. I have pointers I look for in a potential mate (only 3 mind- too many leads to failure), I know what interests me (simple things mainly) and what I dont like (rollercoasters that turn you upside down and baked beans - yuk!) but Im also open to new ideas or experiences. And somewhere out there is the man to share those things with me. Maybe I've just found him, maybe I haven't. Who knows, either way I won't let it get me down. I am after all a bouncing ball - I will always bounce back, maybe not so high each time, but always with a smile and a story to tell after each encounter. Talking of encounters I worked out how many men I have had dates with this year alone! wow! Next blog I promise to list them (or their alter egos to save their identities) and briefly explain why they werent my prince.